Learning to love the new me, the pregnant me has been such a challenge. I went from healing and finally actually loving myself to what feels like starting all over and it’s been rough 🥺 I find myself avoiding doing the things I use to love. I dread posting content bc I don’t feel comfortable in my own skin anymore. And because I feel this way, I feel like I have no positive value to bring to my social media bc I don’t have many positive thoughts running through my head atm. I also don’t want to post how I actually feel bc I don’t want to only post negative things, I also don’t want to come off as ungrateful bc I am so grateful for the ability to carry a child. I am so excited to meet my baby girl and I am in a happy, healthy, loving relationship. So I truly have no need to feel sad or have negative thoughts and the fact that I do frustrates me so bad. I am so happy yet so unhappy with myself. I have so many thoughts that I just don’t share that maybe I’ll start to share just to document. Maybe I’m not alone. Who knows. Anyways I’m rambling and I gotta go. Love you, bye! 💕
did you see her little baby kick at the end? 🥺😭 she’s so active but I swear the moment I record or ask her dad to feel she stops 🙄😂 #mothersday #newmom #pregnantbelly
Even tho this wasn’t our “plan” we are so excited and can’t wait to start our family together. I think he’s more excited than me tbh 😆 I’ve always said that I pray the person I have kids with is someone who’s 100% fully present and committed to me and to their kids. & I’m so thankful that I have just that 🥺❤️